New Year’s and Manifestations (Well, the Wrong Ones)

Featured Image: Lee Joo-Young.

Happy new year! I didn’t know a better way to say hi to you guys, lol. Excuse me but, was last year actually 2021? And was 2020 just two years ago? It feels so strange but I know I’m not the only one who feels like 2020 was just five minutes ago. Unfortunately, time waits for no one; but it favors anybody who wishes to embrace it.

The last time I wrote on the blog, I said I didn’t have my shit together and right now, I still don’t. A lot happened to me last year that I’m still trying to process and if you read my last post, you’d know that last semester took a toll on my mental health that I was hoping I’d fail a course just so I’d stay an extra year in school making up for it.

Honestly, I didn’t mind making that statement earlier but after a while, I began to mind. I returned to school this year for the new semester and was greeted with a message saying my wish had come true but it wasn’t the course I was hoping I’d fail that has gotten me an extra year, it’s another course entirely. And it isn’t even part of my departmental courses. 😦

I have gone through the five stages of grief regarding the situation and once again, have accepted that it’s partly my fault for saying something like that. I guess it’s true that words do actually have some kind of massive psychological and spiritual effect on one’s life.

This experience has made me want to explore the world of manifestations and “speaking” things into existence but I’m worried it might not actually work out because do you know how many times I’ve said to myself I’d have a million dollars in my bank account before I wake up the next day?

Or does saying negative things come faster into existence than saying positive things? It’s really mysterious. Anyway, I didn’t mean to digress from what I intended to say. Yes, things happened to me last year that I’m still trying to get over, and something I casually said last year has manifested in my life but I am alive and breathing.

I wanted to say that I plan to write more on the blog this year and not just for saying sake. I’d love to keep up this part of the bargain even though I am in my final year and have more workload than in all of my previous semesters combined but hey, something is telling me to take up this challenge, lol. Let’s see how it goes.

I don’t have many things planned and it seems like I’ve missed out on a lot in the WordPress blogosphere. I spent the previous hour before drafting this post trying to catch up on some posts, especially on Lifesfinewhine. (Hi Pooja, I’m so glad that you’re still active here. You’re truly an inspiration!)

In case you missed it, I’m in my final year at university. I am anxious (because of the workload) but also excited and even though I’d be delayed for a while, I know it’d be over before I know it. I plan to continue my University Experience series and I hope you’d look forward to them like I am.

I read 60 books last year, an awesome feat for me as I’ve been struggling in the past years to get back into reading more books. I hope to read more books this year. I’ll try reviewing/recommending the ones I had fun reading.

I just finished reading my first book for the year last week and I think it would be proper to review it soon. Meanwhile, you can go through reviews I’ve written in the past, here.

If you’re still here and if you’ve reached this part of the post, thank you so much. I know consistency is a skill that anybody, in this case, a blogger, should be well acquainted with but I-I, I really don’t know how to defend myself in this case but yeah, I’ll try to be consistent and try to put out more posts. Although, I’d love to go with “more quality than quantity” vibe and I hope I stick to it.

Referencing the fourth paragraph, I am going to try this speaking (positive) things into existence thing (while also working hard behind the scenes). Let’s hope it turns out for the best.

In the process of trying to improve my mental health since my depression and anxiety are getting the best of me at the moment, writing this post actually made me feel better. Reading this post also reminded me to turn to the things that make me feel better during dark times like this. I hope you find something that will help you in some way if you’re in a dark place at the moment.

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I’d like to know how you’ve been and what you’ve been up to, if you don’t mind 🙂 And if you’re someone who uses manifestations to improve your life, I’d love if you told me how your experience has been so far.

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Thank you for reading.

Stay safe and healthy.

Happy New Year, again <3.